Chapter 1: Understanding Happiness

Recently, I've shared various reflections such as:

“Happiness is something that originates from within.”

“Happiness varies based on our personal definitions.”

“We should seek joy in the little things.”

These thoughts led me to a moment of introspection: Am I truly knowledgeable about happiness, and have I been genuine in my expressions?

If I could genuinely find contentment in simple pleasures, would I have ever relocated to Dubai? My aspirations are grand, and I have lifelong dreams and ambitions. Here I am, alongside my husband, having left behind all my family and friends.

I frequently reminisce about my mother and grandmother, often expressing how deeply I miss them. It feels as though a piece of my identity is absent.

However, do I truly love them? If my affection is sincere, why did I choose to come here, suggesting that my aspirations outweigh my love for them?

It’s undeniable that my dreams encompass them. I aim to provide them with a better life. But is it acceptable to chase my ambitions without their presence?

Am I genuinely content with my current path? Yes, I find joy — or is that merely a belief I’ve ingrained in myself?

I convince myself that I’ve accomplished my goals, thus attaining completeness.

Yet, happiness eludes me; I feel adrift within my own reflections. At times, I struggle to define it.

What does happiness signify for me?

Is it the allure of living in this magnificent city?

Is it the tranquility of reading a book in a peaceful home?

Is it the relentless pursuit of financial success?

Or do I require a combination of all these aspects?

It seems my sense of self is fading.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!

Chapter 2: The Search for Identity

In this chapter, I dive deeper into my quest for self-awareness and the role of happiness in shaping my identity.

Section 2.1: The Impact of Environment

Living in a vibrant city like Dubai has its perks, but it also poses questions about what truly brings fulfillment.

Subsection 2.1.1: The Quiet Moments